So, we rarely went out, but when we did, we paid for a baby sitter.
I had no help with my children. I had a husband who worked very long hours and no family here. I didn't go to the dentist or the hairdresser for about five years. I still remember going to the dentist after many years and having both children playing 'chasey' around the big chair while I had a filling. I took my children everywhere with me because I didn't have any options. I remember one of the children being sick and not leaving the front door for two weeks.
I didn't go out with friends, have coffees or go shopping because what would I do with the children? After a few years I lost my social skills and got very anxious any time I had to speak to someone in a social context. I then went back to work part time when my husband got very sick and slowly, slowly I started to get back into the world. Now I am fine, but parenting can really isolate you. I think I spent the first two years of my second daughter's life with my husband's flannelette shirt on and baby dribble down my shoulder.
I hope I can be a grandmother who has a relationship with her grandchildren and one who can help out a bit.