Hi all,
Thank you heaps for your feedback! I'm so glad I can post here and hear from so many people who have an interest in property...because I think the views here are a lot more rational than asking someone with just an employee mindset!
I had a chat with my boss on Friday as well as the project manager (PM) for the Phase 2 of the project. The PM for phase 2 is a really good leader and she said to me that she didn't think it was the right thing to do for me and that she would be supportive of me moving to the business analysis/analyst (BA) space in the next 9-12 months once we go live with phase 2. Of course it's not under her control but I need to let my boss and his boss know if that is the sort of the move I intend to make. That phase is something I've wanted to drive the testing for a long time. I will give me exposure to working with global offices like Hong Kong, London, South Africa and potentially US.
The chat with my boss, rather annoyed me. He has been my boss for a year and his feedback has bee 100% positive - in appraisals, in meetings, on instant messaging chat, in person. Also the project testing was set up with testing stream leads per business area for the project and each operated in silos...so I pretty much became the testing expert for my area. When he took over last year he told me he wanted me to help out other streams where needed and where I had the time. Which I have been duly doing every single release. So what he said to me, he wasn't pleased how I didn't put my hand up to manage/lead the stream that had the lead test analyst moving to be a BA. I was a bit gob smacked when he said this as he himself wanted someone in the off shore office running it. I believe that person is closer to that stream than I am and I thought he had the confidence in them to do so. I was taken aback so I said okay I can do that if you like so he said..."I don't have the confidence in you"...and that you didn't ask for it. Then he compared me to his wife how he said I should have asked him myself rather than him flagging it to me. I thought that was a) unprofessional and b) I cannot read his mind...He also said it depends if the "bank" career was a priority for me and if I wanted to be like this woman executive director high up the chain?! Like seriously I DO NOT want to trade my life to be an executive. Though I like how he challenged me that I must not think if testing is going else where that I cannot make it happen for me.
...Can I please add that we never have team meetings and that we only ever get a group chat message 90% of the times!
I was taken aback as I have full trust that if I was given to run that stream, I will do a pretty good darn job. Sure I have issues sometimes stepping out of my comfort zone...but the feedback I received was in contrast to what I have heard from him in the past 12 months. Some of his feedback I was fully open to receiving but yeh - why has he not given it to me before? Or helped me set those goals in my appraisals?? I'm confused.
He went on to ask that if he left, who would the management come to? Who is more likely to take over from him...and that is me. He did say he wanted me to be his eyes and ears when he wasn't around.
Although I am annoyed, I have wanted to step up for a long time and I think now is the opportunity to bite the bullet and LEARN, be mentored and start forming connections with the rest of the project team to establish that authority of being "second in command".
Also that contract role...I don't think I will go for it as the recruitment agent wasn't fully transparent but one of my ex-colleagues who went to that firm said it is NOT a full implementation of the system (no wonder it's a contract!)
Sash, you are right - why not focus on the bottom line?! I will do that...But you know it gets difficult when your boss says..."It depends if XYZ bank career is a priority for you?" I think from now on I will not be sharing about property with anyone at work. And that I will just aim to give my best while I'm in office and excel at what I do there (while stepping up), yet my END GOAL is property property property.....WHY the heck do people in the employment force think that being a corporate executive is the goal for EVERYBODY?!!!